I've been in this industry for 30+ years. I still don't understand how I can retire from my hobby that I have been having a passion for since I was 17 and still

I've been in this industry for 30+ years. I still don't understand how I can retire from my hobby that I have been having a passion for since I was 17 and still enjoy? Yes, I have been paid for it (handsomely!) but that was _never_ the goal. I just liked playing with computers ...