I suggest that you make time for what is important to you and be honest about why you love to code. It's possible that coding for your company is a compromise,

I suggest that you make time for what is important to you and be honest about why you love to code. It's possible that coding for your company is a compromise, anyhow - I made a decision a few years ago to only code on my own projects, and I suddenly love programming as much as I did 15 years ago again. In that way, lending your experience to a dev team without having to roll up your sleeves might be a blessing, because many folks find that doing it for other people doesn't satisfy in the same way as doing it for yourself. YMMV, of course.