There's a YouTube channel named Sor Hands, and what you've said here is something he has occasionally brought up. He also mentions how he nearly never improvise

There's a YouTube channel named Sor Hands, and what you've said here is something he has occasionally brought up. He also mentions how he nearly never improvises or plays something that he himself wrote as a result. The comments like this are always in passing, but it does expose his fears to those who notice.