This is not necessarily helpful, but consider eliminating "wait" as a thing you can do. If it is true you cannot leave the country due to financial constrains

This is not necessarily helpful, but consider eliminating "wait" as a thing you can do. If it is true you cannot leave the country due to financial constrains and you do not wish to do it as a result, then stop waiting to leave. Now your focus can be re-targeted to doing -- so long as it's not doing waiting. It sounds like you have freelancing aspirations. Perhaps something worth doing is building a solid social network with a referral program. A bonafide consultancy. You may still want to go to another country, but you aren't waiting to do it -- you are starting a consultancy. There may come a day when you see the financial success you set out for. You'll note you want to leave the country, so you will book a ticket for next week and set up an apartment. You'll just do it. Semantically, you still waited. Mentally, you took action -- so there was no negative fallout usually associated with waiting. Always commit fully to your present task, do not let the delusion of waiting creep in and breed complacency. It's what I am trying, at least... human nature does have a lot of exploits.