I think you should find somebody to talk to (in real life, not HN!) You sound as if you have got into a rut and are not really thinking objectively. At least, y

I think you should find somebody to talk to (in real life, not HN!) You sound as if you have got into a rut and are not really thinking objectively. At least, you owe it to your partner to have an open talk about how you are feeling.