Thanks so much for the words! Everything along the way I struggle with how exactly to implement it in my mental logic model and actually recall it when needed,

Thanks so much for the words! Everything along the way I struggle with how exactly to implement it in my mental logic model and actually recall it when needed, but once I can do that that individual element becomes much easier. That's how I originally thought of "when will this get easy" until I realized what I meant by easy: when will I just want to do this more than occasionally, when will I ENJOY it. That's when I realized the answer. It will never be "easy" in the sense that learning these new elements will always be difficult in a way, but there will come and already is starting to come a time when I can do it in a way that fulfills me instantly when I'm doing it.