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I am sorry for your loss as well, it was even harder for you in twenties.

• exasperaited 11mo ago
  The thing is that as awful as it was, maybe I personally got through it initially without doing all the grieving, because I thought so much of my grieving had happened after she was diagnosed with such an awful, bleak thing. In reality I was still dealing with it ten, fifteen years later. Because pre-death grief and post-death grief are different things. This only really came home to me three and a half years ago when my (elderly) father died after years of moderate dementia; this hit me so hard and continues to weigh on me, and I realised I'd tried to avoid grief when my mother died. I miss my father in a way I never allowed myself to miss my mother, and he had the good long life. Grief is there whether you want to acknowledge it or not.