Symptoms and side effects can vary a lot between people, you could've gotten unlucky. > Who is more negatively affected by this behavior: your employer or you?

Symptoms and side effects can vary a lot between people, you could've gotten unlucky. > Who is more negatively affected by this behavior: your employer or you? I like my job. I think I am making the world a better place, and I would choose to do this even if I was wealthy enough to never work. When I am unable to do my job because my ego does not align with my id, it makes me angry and disappointed. > I do not think there is anything pathological about being a jack-of-all trades type or not committing to some hobby. Nor do I. I do, however, think there is something pathological about sitting on the floor for three hours doing nothing because you're procrastinating on deciding what book to read next, or debugging a 3D printer, or replying to an invitation (or because you need to shower, or cook, ...). This behavior is not enjoyable at all. It sounds like you primarily experience ADHD as getting in the way of things you have to do, rather than things you want to do. I'm sure that sucks in its own way, but the grass looks greener from over here. > Which I believe is direct evidence of how our symptoms affect others and not inherently oneself. I inherently care about other people, and when I let them down, it makes me sad. Perhaps you prefer to define all instances of your friends having desires and expectations around your relationship as oppression, that when I am upset I missed an important event it is because I am being brainwashed by society. But I think this is a small, selfish way of viewing the world. Many traits can get in the way of being a good friend (surely you know someone who is prone to anger, or envy, or insecurity), and if you are a good friend, you try to mitigate them. > I would say that I made a deal with the Devil just to feel some sense of respite. Next time you see the Devil, do me a favor and ask him if he has any other opportunities.