Most people really cannot fathom how much of a debilitating experience it can be. I always end up in a place where people seem weirdly obtuse, imprecise and jus

Most people really cannot fathom how much of a debilitating experience it can be. I always end up in a place where people seem weirdly obtuse, imprecise and just irrational. Even when I make big efforts to connect, I feel alone because it feels like we are not even speaking the same language. Of course, there are some social groups/spaces where it's much better but I currently do not have access to them because of poor life choices and bad habits ingrained from a very difficult childhood. But I'm working on changing that. It's not like I'm not used to it, anyway. At the age of 4, the responsible women at the kindergarten told my mother that I was "too different" (only recently learned this, not that I didn't realize something was going on back then). I have always been able to make friends somehow but there is always a weird disconnect. Ah well, can't recommend the experience really.