"One way is to just give up this made up life and go work for a non profit (volunteering is one of those few things that really makes me happy)." I think you'v

"One way is to just give up this made up life and go work for a non profit (volunteering is one of those few things that really makes me happy)." I think you've identified yourself a path to become happier. Is it a big risk to give up your current job? If not, go look for a non profit you can work for. Your salary may be lower, but you might become happier (and maybe make some at-work friendships?).