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Wow I could have wrote this exactly excepy for a 1 year difference in diagnosis. It's hard to reconcile with how difficult it was previously. Life on hard mode

Wow I could have wrote this exactly excepy for a 1 year difference in diagnosis. It's hard to reconcile with how difficult it was previously. Life on hard mode is a term ived used too. I try to think that it was all to make me stronger for the second half of my life, but I still regularly wonder what could have been.

tonyarkles 1y ago
One of my favourite lines: “I could solve differential equations all day long, but I couldn’t remember to pay my phone bill”
- kstrauser 1y ago
  To quote Ron White, "I'm smart, but you can't prove it on paper."
  - tonyarkles 1y ago
    Heh, my undergrad transcript is so funny to look at in hindsight. Great grades in the hard courses, terrible grades in the easy courses. Did well on the final exams for all of them, couldn't be arsed to do the homework for the boring ones.
    - kstrauser 1y ago
      Please stop telling the world about my school experience! One time I realized I hadn't gone to my intro chemistry class yet that semester and had a test that day. I went, bluffed my way through based on what I remembered from high school chemistry, figured out mid-test how to calculate rate-limiting reactions, and aced it. My then-girlfriend, now-wife was so incredibly annoyed with me about every bit of that. "What do you mean, you hadn't gone to class, ever? And that you still aced the test?!" And I also failed a comparatively easy general ed class because I just couldn't convince my brain to care, even though I know I needed it and certainly didn't want to take it a second time.
      - tonyarkles 1y ago
        Heh, yeah… I still occasionally have nightmares about something like that happening. Just completely forgetting about being registered in a class and walking in half-way through the year. Had a midterm for a class I did actually like that went sort of how you described. I prepared for it a bit and was sitting around with some friends killing time before the 2pm exam. It’s about 1:40pm, I figure it’s time to head over. Go to the course website to find which room the exam is in and discover that the exam started at 1pm. Run over there, get there at 1:50pm, and finish the exam before the 2:30pm end time. Hand it in, the professor knew I’d been really late and had a weird look on his face as I give it to him. He looks it over, smiles, and says “I was going to offer some extra time for you because of the mix-up but… looking at your answers here… I don’t think you need it! See you on Thursday!”
        kstrauser 1y ago
        I believe every word of this because I could absolutely see it happening to me. ADHD cheers, friend. I'm proud of us for making it this far.
        c2247946 1y ago
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    - 01HNNWZ0MV43FF 1y ago
      Perfect GPA in computer science despite playing games as much as possible during every class Almost failed a history class because I couldn't do essays more than a day before they were due I can do anything if it's urgent or interesting, but that's it
      - kstrauser 1y ago
        Story of my life, right there. I hear ya.
VenturingVole 1y ago
Also with you (both) on this one in pretty much every way too. I'd justify hard mode that I loved challenges (and I did, just not always in the right areas). I try not to look/think back too much - I had (sort of still have) a very successful career but the costs associated with getting there were and are still being paid for. Getting treatment and therapy has really helped improve my ability to be present, though still such a battle.

tonyarkles 1y ago

One of my favourite lines: “I could solve differential equations all day long, but I couldn’t remember to pay my phone bill”

kstrauser 1y ago
To quote Ron White, "I'm smart, but you can't prove it on paper."
- tonyarkles 1y ago
  Heh, my undergrad transcript is so funny to look at in hindsight. Great grades in the hard courses, terrible grades in the easy courses. Did well on the final exams for all of them, couldn't be arsed to do the homework for the boring ones.
  - kstrauser 1y ago
    Please stop telling the world about my school experience! One time I realized I hadn't gone to my intro chemistry class yet that semester and had a test that day. I went, bluffed my way through based on what I remembered from high school chemistry, figured out mid-test how to calculate rate-limiting reactions, and aced it. My then-girlfriend, now-wife was so incredibly annoyed with me about every bit of that. "What do you mean, you hadn't gone to class, ever? And that you still aced the test?!" And I also failed a comparatively easy general ed class because I just couldn't convince my brain to care, even though I know I needed it and certainly didn't want to take it a second time.
    - tonyarkles 1y ago
      Heh, yeah… I still occasionally have nightmares about something like that happening. Just completely forgetting about being registered in a class and walking in half-way through the year. Had a midterm for a class I did actually like that went sort of how you described. I prepared for it a bit and was sitting around with some friends killing time before the 2pm exam. It’s about 1:40pm, I figure it’s time to head over. Go to the course website to find which room the exam is in and discover that the exam started at 1pm. Run over there, get there at 1:50pm, and finish the exam before the 2:30pm end time. Hand it in, the professor knew I’d been really late and had a weird look on his face as I give it to him. He looks it over, smiles, and says “I was going to offer some extra time for you because of the mix-up but… looking at your answers here… I don’t think you need it! See you on Thursday!”
      - kstrauser 1y ago
        I believe every word of this because I could absolutely see it happening to me. ADHD cheers, friend. I'm proud of us for making it this far.
        c2247946 1y ago
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  - 01HNNWZ0MV43FF 1y ago
    Perfect GPA in computer science despite playing games as much as possible during every class Almost failed a history class because I couldn't do essays more than a day before they were due I can do anything if it's urgent or interesting, but that's it
    - kstrauser 1y ago
      Story of my life, right there. I hear ya.

VenturingVole 1y ago

Also with you (both) on this one in pretty much every way too. I'd justify hard mode that I loved challenges (and I did, just not always in the right areas). I try not to look/think back too much - I had (sort of still have) a very successful career but the costs associated with getting there were and are still being paid for. Getting treatment and therapy has really helped improve my ability to be present, though still such a battle.