I understand. I have been there myself. I found it very difficult to crawl out of that hole. It helped me to understand that since a series of decisions led me

I understand. I have been there myself. I found it very difficult to crawl out of that hole. It helped me to understand that since a series of decisions led me there, that a series of decisions could lead me out. It took some irrational risk that paid off in my case. Since you mention a family with children, modeling good health and socialization will help the children in your life too. Do try, if you can. No shame, if you sincerely cannot. Good luck.