I've worked independently, then had employee programmers, now back to independent. It's a mixed bag. It's all on my shoulders now, it's lonely, and progress is

I've worked independently, then had employee programmers, now back to independent. It's a mixed bag. It's all on my shoulders now, it's lonely, and progress is slower. On the other hand when I had a team, I had to organize the priority, check the work, motivate them. It was quite a distraction in many ways. I also felt I was creating too much make-work just to keep people interested. But now I struggle with my own motivation having no one to share the burden. Co-working and colleagues doesn't really improve the loneliness much. I don't have an answer though. I'll probably go back to a team some day.