This is my struggle. I'm intensely curious but have no prior super successes in my lineage so I still feel like I've only gotten so far and feel like I'm kind

This is my struggle. I'm intensely curious but have no prior super successes in my lineage so I still feel like I've only gotten so far and feel like I'm kind of stuck because I can't leave the job that pays my bills. I also wish I naturally wanted to broadly share my curious deep-dives but I can't find a format that wouldn't take away from the enjoyment of pursuing them.