This is common, stage of life stuff. From 64, let me say that it gets better, and that seeking professional advice about your state of mind is a solid investmen

This is common, stage of life stuff. From 64, let me say that it gets better, and that seeking professional advice about your state of mind is a solid investment. I did and never regretted it. If I had a time machine which only went back to my 40s I'd possibly only say invest more for the future and exercise a shitload more. Most of the really embarrassing faux pas happened before this time. I would also say deciding not to tear up my personal and work relationships like so many around me and instead invest in fixing what's wrong in them paid off.