You are way too pessimistic. It would help if you find ways to make yourself more optimistic, whether that's through a long break or exercise or nature or your

You are way too pessimistic. It would help if you find ways to make yourself more optimistic, whether that's through a long break or exercise or nature or your hobbies. I suggest starting with a long break. > I’m 40. If you think that's too old, no it's not. My manager is older than that when he got the current job. > I struggle with networking, so I have no professional connections. If you have coworkers you have professional connections. > My savings can last about two year That's not bad at all. Feel free to spend a half year to one year taking a break and the rest of the time preparing your next steps. > I haven’t interviewed in years and get extremely anxious in interviews. You need to be more confident in yourself. Interviewing is a skill that can be learned. Not being anxious also can be learned.