At least you are aware that you are an increased risk every time you drive. Which means when you do inevitably kill someone and ruin the lives of their friends

At least you are aware that you are an increased risk every time you drive. Which means when you do inevitably kill someone and ruin the lives of their friends and family you will be culpable and spend a long time in jail. You are morally on par with a drink driver and deserve zero sympathy from anyone.