I'm kind of confused by your writing. So your argument is that you didn't have incentive to do a shit ton of work compared to others, but by your own admission,

I'm kind of confused by your writing. So your argument is that you didn't have incentive to do a shit ton of work compared to others, but by your own admission, your work was subpar because of the amount you pushed out. Why would that get rewarded? I'm not trying to be hateful, I'm trying to understand your thought process. Couldn't you just slow down and do really good work? Wouldn't that solve both problems?