I think community is a (the?) source of joy, and it‘s unfortunate you‘re having these issues. And I wouldn’t just blame it on being picky, there could be root c

I think community is a (the?) source of joy, and it‘s unfortunate you‘re having these issues. And I wouldn’t just blame it on being picky, there could be root causes for this that are not obvious - like burnout, other mental issues, brain health issues. Not all can be fixed of course.