Existence is absurd, there is a massive gaping hole at the root of it all where for some reason everything exists - raising obvious questions like huh? and what

Existence is absurd, there is a massive gaping hole at the root of it all where for some reason everything exists - raising obvious questions like huh? and what?. We can deduce that the macro picture is weird by virtue of it has to be something pretty out there to justify anything existing at all. For example, time existing was always hard to justify because then either everything started from nothing (bit of a stretch, what was there before?) or there was no start and the universe is eternal (which is almost harder to stomach; how could that possibly work). Much more likely that time is an illusion despite the superficial evidence to the contrary. The idea that there is a macro evolutionary processes going on seems pretty tame by comparison even if it is heavily speculative. We're in a domain where we have no evidence to work with. We can see a bunch of stars. They're moving away from each other. It seems likely gravity is a major factor. We know evolutionary processes turn up at the drop of a hat.