It's possible that programming as a paid career isn't for you. I'm not exactly like you, but I also find a kind of beauty in code. I also can take longer to d

It's possible that programming as a paid career isn't for you. I'm not exactly like you, but I also find a kind of beauty in code. I also can take longer to deliver results, as I need to fully understand systems. I've built some things that stood the test of time. But I did not enjoy working as a professional developer for the most part. You have to deliver value to those who are paying you. While I can do that, I did not like it. So I switched careers, and I still write code for my own pleasure, in my own way.