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Yep, 6 years of being forced to play the violin. Sure, once I was playing it, I was fine, but I cannot explain to you the sheer dread I felt opening up the cas
by tetris11 2y ago
Yep, 6 years of being forced to play the violin.
Sure, once I was playing it, I was fine, but I cannot explain to you the sheer dread I felt opening up the case.
Have not played in decades, despite all those lessons and concerts and orchestra sessions.
- ctxc 2y agoI felt the same. I didn't touch it for ~9 years. But I'm glad for it, since it lets me jam or enjoy myself without having to put the practice in now from scratch. I do it for fun.
- tetris11 2y agoI live in the hope that one day I will pick it up and feel nothing but contentment of being in the moment, but I'm just not ready for that yet. Even the smell of tree resin sometimes makes my stomach tighten with anxiety.
- zdragnar 2y agoExecutive function / demand avoidance. Not to the point of being pathological, but it is a learned emotional behavioral complex.