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Like Peter, I do recommend talking to someone about this. You don't sound content, and life is too short to miss out on the journey. I say this as someone who

Like Peter, I do recommend talking to someone about this. You don't sound content, and life is too short to miss out on the journey. I say this as someone who earns much less than you (never mind 800k), and who didn't go to a top school. I'm no psychiatrist but your posts suggests that you see yourself as a failure, or possibly you've gotten that feedback from others directly. Perhaps at Amazon or elsewhere. Projecting that feeling onto others suggests you would really benefit from talking to a professional about this. I don't think you're a failure, I don't know you. But from what little you've revealed I'd say you're not a failure. But perhaps you had your own goals you failed to achieve?

laidoffamazon 2y ago
I’ve had therapy, it doesn’t help. It doesn’t change the material facts that everyone thinks I’m a failure because that’s the objective truth.
- fedsocpuppet 2y ago
  Did they actually tell you that? I highly doubt it. You've created a preconception that I guarantee is not accurate at all. You have multiple people here saying it's bullshit, and we're not lying or trolling or anything like that. I replied somewhere else but I want to reiterate - why would you even want approval from people who dehumanize others on the basis of TC? It's like being upset Martin Shkreli doesn't want to be your friend. I really hope you'll believe me
  - laidoffamazon 2y ago
    It’s not just TC though. TC is an imperfect proxy for ability and class. If I’m just permanently in the underclass - unable to be compared to you people - it’s obvious that y’all wouldn’t even see me as human. I have no accomplishments, nothing to be proud of. Freshmen at MIT have more potential and prior accomplishments than I do.
    - fragmede 2y ago
      The "under" class that makes more than ninety-five percent of US households? You might need a refresher on the meaning of the word "under".
    - findingMeaning 2y ago
      Mah bro, such is life. In fact the entirety of humanity is like that. Unfairness is everywhere. There is nothing wrong being under accomplished. Let me tell you a secret that helps with mental sanity. All humans are sinful creatures. We indulge in lot of these sins. If you go through this chain of thought you arrive at conclusion, everyone is inferior to one another. The material superiority you yearn for is a momentary fleet in the river of time. Sometimes just reflect on yourself. One perspective of life is your world governs you. If you are happy in your own world, try to let go of it. Just enjoy the moments and don't hold on it. You are the actor and creator of your reality. Your objective reality is making you feel inferior. Define your role, change your actions, and act accordingly. The inability to act according to your role is the probably reason behind your feeling. You probably see yourself through some different lens where your actions and objective reward do not align. All you can do is control your thoughts and actions. So act.
    - juliusgeo 2y ago
      As Percy Shelley said about Ozymandias, "Look on my Works, ye Mighty, and despair!" We're all sand on a long enough time scale, and getting a TC 800k+ will not save you from that fate, in the same way that conquering an empire will not save you either. Other people have pointed out that you likely make a decent wage, but understandably that does not address your concern. If you feel that your only value is your accomplishments, then no matter how much you achieve it will never be enough. You get to decide your own goals, and whether you're reaching them. Don't let these proxies for ability and class decide what you want or how fast you should get it.
    - lee-rhapsody 2y ago
      >makes $220k+ a year >"i have no accomplishments" give me a break
- fragmede 2y ago
  You make more than $220k. Holy fucking shit that's a giant ass pile of money! Objectively, you. are. not. a. failure! Ninety-five percent of US households earn less than that. Ninety-five! The material fact here is you have this made up story in your head that's not supported by the limited facts you've given us. I'm not going to change your self image by yelling at a stranger over the Internet; if traditional talk therapy with a human didn't work, discuss it at length with ChatGPT, or go see a sex worker, they're surprisingly good for talking to. You're also welcome to email me, link in bio.

laidoffamazon 2y ago

I’ve had therapy, it doesn’t help. It doesn’t change the material facts that everyone thinks I’m a failure because that’s the objective truth.

fedsocpuppet 2y ago
Did they actually tell you that? I highly doubt it. You've created a preconception that I guarantee is not accurate at all. You have multiple people here saying it's bullshit, and we're not lying or trolling or anything like that. I replied somewhere else but I want to reiterate - why would you even want approval from people who dehumanize others on the basis of TC? It's like being upset Martin Shkreli doesn't want to be your friend. I really hope you'll believe me
- laidoffamazon 2y ago
  It’s not just TC though. TC is an imperfect proxy for ability and class. If I’m just permanently in the underclass - unable to be compared to you people - it’s obvious that y’all wouldn’t even see me as human. I have no accomplishments, nothing to be proud of. Freshmen at MIT have more potential and prior accomplishments than I do.
  - fragmede 2y ago
    The "under" class that makes more than ninety-five percent of US households? You might need a refresher on the meaning of the word "under".
  - findingMeaning 2y ago
    Mah bro, such is life. In fact the entirety of humanity is like that. Unfairness is everywhere. There is nothing wrong being under accomplished. Let me tell you a secret that helps with mental sanity. All humans are sinful creatures. We indulge in lot of these sins. If you go through this chain of thought you arrive at conclusion, everyone is inferior to one another. The material superiority you yearn for is a momentary fleet in the river of time. Sometimes just reflect on yourself. One perspective of life is your world governs you. If you are happy in your own world, try to let go of it. Just enjoy the moments and don't hold on it. You are the actor and creator of your reality. Your objective reality is making you feel inferior. Define your role, change your actions, and act accordingly. The inability to act according to your role is the probably reason behind your feeling. You probably see yourself through some different lens where your actions and objective reward do not align. All you can do is control your thoughts and actions. So act.
  - juliusgeo 2y ago
    As Percy Shelley said about Ozymandias, "Look on my Works, ye Mighty, and despair!" We're all sand on a long enough time scale, and getting a TC 800k+ will not save you from that fate, in the same way that conquering an empire will not save you either. Other people have pointed out that you likely make a decent wage, but understandably that does not address your concern. If you feel that your only value is your accomplishments, then no matter how much you achieve it will never be enough. You get to decide your own goals, and whether you're reaching them. Don't let these proxies for ability and class decide what you want or how fast you should get it.
  - lee-rhapsody 2y ago
    >makes $220k+ a year >"i have no accomplishments" give me a break
fragmede 2y ago
You make more than $220k. Holy fucking shit that's a giant ass pile of money! Objectively, you. are. not. a. failure! Ninety-five percent of US households earn less than that. Ninety-five! The material fact here is you have this made up story in your head that's not supported by the limited facts you've given us. I'm not going to change your self image by yelling at a stranger over the Internet; if traditional talk therapy with a human didn't work, discuss it at length with ChatGPT, or go see a sex worker, they're surprisingly good for talking to. You're also welcome to email me, link in bio.