If you lack purpose, you need to find purpose. You could try getting deeply involved with a local club or group. See if you can find a local hacker space, gard

If you lack purpose, you need to find purpose. You could try getting deeply involved with a local club or group. See if you can find a local hacker space, gardening club (one where you rent a plot in a community garden so you have the “pressure” to do well), pottery, sports (kickball, pickle ball, casual), volunteer, bee keeping, indoor rock climbing, the list goes on. Whatever it is, go to all the meetings. Push yourself to become involved and not just a participant. These groups almost always need more active members. If you don’t have a close friend group, joining a club is also an opportunity to get one or add to your current one. Also, don’t try to search for the purpose too hard. I stopped gaming for years because there was “no point”, because after 100hrs in a game, there’s no tangible benefit. The journey is sometimes more important than the destination. Also, you’re on month 2 of a very long journey. You won’t feel like yourself for a very long time and may never feel like your old self since your existence was likely intertwined with that other person. That’s OK. The greater the joy, the deeper the loss. I think you’re on the right path. Good luck.