I would also like the whole world to change so that I don't have to face my personal traumas. But, since that's not gonna happen, I have to deal with them in ot

I would also like the whole world to change so that I don't have to face my personal traumas. But, since that's not gonna happen, I have to deal with them in other ways. CBT therapy, especially the "B" part, was essentially created to help overcome phobias of things like words. There are some great books on CBT, and also research showing that working alone using a book can often be as effective as working with a therapist. The classic Feeling Good by David Burns, while the case studies are a bit dated, is still an amazing book.