I think something in this ballpark has been a driving force behind some mood issues that have been with me for the last 5 months or so, that have just recently

I think something in this ballpark has been a driving force behind some mood issues that have been with me for the last 5 months or so, that have just recently been improving. Realistically, though, I've experienced falling short of all sorts of internal and external expectations for many years now, so I don't know what's special about this time.