Am I the only one here for whom writing ends up having the opposite effect? Whenever I write something it's practically like archiving it on paper - the idea i

Am I the only one here for whom writing ends up having the opposite effect? Whenever I write something it's practically like archiving it on paper - the idea is set aside, now to focus on something else. I almost never happens that I go back to what I've written and process it. Which is why journaling doesn't seem to be working for me; the only way I can have something manifest is by mulling over it for extended periods of time.