I don’t know whose opinions I value, because everyone I’ve ever had a connection with has left my life or abandoned me. So seemingly people eventually have a ne

I don’t know whose opinions I value, because everyone I’ve ever had a connection with has left my life or abandoned me. So seemingly people eventually have a negative opinion of me. And I have tried everything people recommend. Fitness, grooming, psychiatrists, psychologists, counsellors, eating healthy, putting myself out there. On paper I should be confident. I’m tall, I was handsome before I put on weight, I’ve got a degree in Electrical Engineering, I’ve sold software so have had some business success, I’ve had many girlfriends, and I work incredibly hard. But I’m so fucking lonely and in my own head. And I’m tired of it all. It never gets better