I went into a k-hole (a few times) where I was seeing myself from the outside (with all my flaws and faults being shown to me), and I remember my then-girlfrien

I went into a k-hole (a few times) where I was seeing myself from the outside (with all my flaws and faults being shown to me), and I remember my then-girlfriend slipping away from me and I tried to grab into her but she slipped away, and I remember being locked in time (not sure how to explain it). I did DXM too, that was less clean than ketamine and DXM had more of an alienish-vibe to it and I ended up watching Stargate Atlantis on it, that was fun, but ketamine had me self-reflect quite a lot. About expectations & imminent, it made me want to change the way I live as I am pretty much a reclusive. I wish I could explain it better but I really can't. I never felt an urge to re-dose, however.