My parents were both born abroad. I was born in the US. As a child we spoke their native language at home. It was my first language. Then I went to preschool an

My parents were both born abroad. I was born in the US. As a child we spoke their native language at home. It was my first language. Then I went to preschool and learned English. We ended up moving to another country for a while and I learned that language too. Then we returned to the US and I can only speak English. It’s absolutely had an effect on my speaking and thinking habits. I’ve tried to learn those other two languages and I think it’s been harder than it is for most people. It’s blocked. I have ephemeral thoughts I can’t convey in language. It’s like having persistent deja vu.