I've generally speaking considered myself an athiest, and I don't think that theism is the only way about this, but as I've gotten older, I've sort of chosen to

I've generally speaking considered myself an athiest, and I don't think that theism is the only way about this, but as I've gotten older, I've sort of chosen to... let's say practice a belief in God, as a way to sort of filter the world in opposition to the existentialist idea that if we truly stared into the abyss of our existence we'd go insane. I think it's useful to have a moral grounding or framework when overwhelmed by the goings on in the world. Something about trying to understand that there is a core goodness or moral foundation outside of the tangible chaos we experience everyday. I think like there needs to be a balance between "question everything" which can (not necessarily is) a risk of atheism or anti-theism) and "question nothing".