I did read it. I think I understand your point. If this is how I feel? I do not think so. I mean I did pretty good job with chores around my house last summer.

I did read it. I think I understand your point. If this is how I feel? I do not think so. I mean I did pretty good job with chores around my house last summer. It was nice. It was fulfilling. Not like my job feels like. I do try to work on myself decided to go on diet probably I will try to take on some exersices once the winter is gone... etc. It is not like I lie in bed over the weekend or play video games all the time eating chips. Just this job... I need money to support my family but it is freaking waste of my time. Even more when I think about my side project waiting for me to have time to work on it. I could play some Lego with my kids and this would be more enjoyable. My job feels like crawling through barbed wire because some guy decided that just walking on pavement is not struggle enough. Is this depression? IMHO no. But no doctor can argue with you if you say that you are feeling pain so maybe this persistent state of misery could be depression for some.