> I think a big factor might have been learning to read at around the age of two, possibly creating deep and regularly reinforced mnemonic links to my audiovisu

> I think a big factor might have been learning to read at around the age of two, possibly creating deep and regularly reinforced mnemonic links to my audiovisual recall. That's very possible. Although it wouldn't explain much regarding me. I don't come from an educated family, my parents had me very young, they didn't know how to take care of children and for the most part left me to my own devices. I didn't learn any reading besides the letters of my own name before the age of 5. > Out of curiosity, what did you specifically do to trigger these "re-experiences"? Do you think doing this might have altered the sensory memories of your early experiences themselves? To be clear I wasn't specifically looking for this. At that time I had the general feeling that there was something that existed in my life, something I could feel the shape of, large but hidden behind a veil. Something that was in front of my eyes but that my conscious mind avoided. And I knew it was strongly linked with stuff I was trying to unravel in therapy. I was intent on getting to the bottom of it but kept bumping into an invisible wall. So, one day, I just had the impulse to go on a deep and long DMT trip while being obsessed with that stuff in the background. Trying to follow the thread of what bothered me it brought me back to that moment in my life where my identity was still being formed. What's interesting, from what I can tell, is that the sensory content of the memory is unchanged. But what I got access to is the emotional and intellectual state I was in at the time which, in conjunction with my fully developed brain, made me able to understand a self that wasn't then able to understand itself. The way I see it, psychedelics are basically WD40 for the brain.