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Im not sure I follow, but I think there is something about it related to either age or generation. It seems like a lot of people are going through life on autop

Im not sure I follow, but I think there is something about it related to either age or generation. It seems like a lot of people are going through life on autopilot without thinking about what they really want, questioning what makes them happy, and ending up very dissatisfied with the results. I think there is something powerful about feeling like you chose the life you are living among the options available.

hirvi74 2y ago
No worries, I know I am hard to follow. Anyway, I think you are absolutely correct. Honestly, what you wrote is an apt description of me. I am in my early 30s, thus all I can truly write about is what I have experienced in my generation. I feel like I was raised to treat life in an algorithmic sense. If one wants a good life, then as long as he or she follows the given path, then happiness awaits. You know -- be a good person, stay in school, don't do drugs, don't get in trouble, work hard, go to college, get a good job, find a partner and settle down, etc.. Any deviation from the plan was more or less a death sentence -- get in trouble? Congratulations, you threw your life away. Bad grades => no college => "put the fries in the bag." Obviously, we were somewhat encouraged to follow our dreams. Want to be a rockstar or a professional athlete? Great, but make sure you still stick to the path because if/when your dream likely fails, then at least you have something to fall back on. So, what did I do? I followed the path the best I could have at the time. What were my results? Well, I make more money the median household income in the US, still technically under six-figures, but I work in the public sector (gov), so it's not the best place for high compensation. What else do I have? Well, I have a romantic relationship with a longterm girlfriend that is kind in a rough patch that we will hopefully work through, I have virtually no friends, no hobbies, no goals, no ambitions, I take "medication" during the day and use cannabis at night to offset the medication's effects just so I am semi-functional enough to work a job that I have grown to hate with every fiber of my being. So yeah, I did not think my life would end up this way. I suppose I theoretically have to powers to change it, but what do I change it to? I have no idea what I want, I do not know what will make me happy, and I am afraid of whatever changes I make will lead to the same dissatisfying results. So, I am basically just living my life one day at a time until I meet my end. Does any of that make any sense?

hirvi74 2y ago

No worries, I know I am hard to follow. Anyway, I think you are absolutely correct. Honestly, what you wrote is an apt description of me. I am in my early 30s, thus all I can truly write about is what I have experienced in my generation. I feel like I was raised to treat life in an algorithmic sense. If one wants a good life, then as long as he or she follows the given path, then happiness awaits. You know -- be a good person, stay in school, don't do drugs, don't get in trouble, work hard, go to college, get a good job, find a partner and settle down, etc.. Any deviation from the plan was more or less a death sentence -- get in trouble? Congratulations, you threw your life away. Bad grades => no college => "put the fries in the bag." Obviously, we were somewhat encouraged to follow our dreams. Want to be a rockstar or a professional athlete? Great, but make sure you still stick to the path because if/when your dream likely fails, then at least you have something to fall back on. So, what did I do? I followed the path the best I could have at the time. What were my results? Well, I make more money the median household income in the US, still technically under six-figures, but I work in the public sector (gov), so it's not the best place for high compensation. What else do I have? Well, I have a romantic relationship with a longterm girlfriend that is kind in a rough patch that we will hopefully work through, I have virtually no friends, no hobbies, no goals, no ambitions, I take "medication" during the day and use cannabis at night to offset the medication's effects just so I am semi-functional enough to work a job that I have grown to hate with every fiber of my being. So yeah, I did not think my life would end up this way. I suppose I theoretically have to powers to change it, but what do I change it to? I have no idea what I want, I do not know what will make me happy, and I am afraid of whatever changes I make will lead to the same dissatisfying results. So, I am basically just living my life one day at a time until I meet my end. Does any of that make any sense?