I never understood the appeal of being calm. It's fucking boring. Since early childhood I needed extra stimulation: first I'd listen to mom reading stories whil

I never understood the appeal of being calm. It's fucking boring. Since early childhood I needed extra stimulation: first I'd listen to mom reading stories while I was playing with toys, then at school I'd listen to the teacher while playing games on my PSP. That allowed my brain to stay engaged. Now I just finished an exhausting day - I lay on the sofa, put on some music, have a slideshow on my computer screen, play this game. After finishing it, I'm feeling relaxed and tired in a way "now I'm ready to go to sleep". A friend of mine jokes that I have a motor in my ass because I can't sit still, whenever we meet I want to keep walking around, just for the sake of not sitting in one place. I honestly think that high-stimulation is a great thing, as long as we use it to our advantage, instead of being hindered by it. The essence of life is doing things against the natural forces of inanimate physics, rather than sitting and doing nothing. The more you do, the more you live. The absolutely worst feeling in my life that I battle as an adult is being tired, when my mind and body refuse to do high-stimulation activities, and I end up just laying in bed the entire day.