This. Do you feel "normal" when on stimulants? The average person feels like they smoked meth. If you feel your thoughts coming under control, it might be a sig

This. Do you feel "normal" when on stimulants? The average person feels like they smoked meth. If you feel your thoughts coming under control, it might be a sign (emphasis on might). Go see a doctor urgently. If they say you don't have anything and should never take stimulants, see a therapist to learn to live with the reality of who you are and where you want to be.