I swing between hating my job and loving it. Sometimes it’s super interesting, but other times it’s either too boring or too demanding. I am an anaesthetic ass

I swing between hating my job and loving it. Sometimes it’s super interesting, but other times it’s either too boring or too demanding. I am an anaesthetic assistant. If I’m learning how to master a new piece of technology, or showing other people how to use new technology then I’m usually pretty engaged and find it interesting. If I’m doing stuff that requires me to be alert at all times whilst simultaneously ensuring maximum efficiency then I enjoy the challenges that come with that. If I’m seeing an unusual surgical procedure for the first time I can find that interesting. However, if I’m helping in a 12 hour craniotomy, then I’m usually bored out of my mind with very little to do. Equally, if I’m helping with an acute clot retrieval in a 94 year old with dementia who’s case bumps a healthy person waiting for a knee or hip replacement, I think it’s shit and that healthcare doesn’t spend enough time reflecting on the fact that just because you can do a procedure doesn’t mean you should. Not everyone can or should be saved, and when healthcare works hard and wastes resources on prolonging suffering so a few family members can avoid experiencing the feelings of loss and grief for a couple of extra days, I absolutely hate my job.