As someone in middle age who has also been struggling with ADHD and frequent mental paralysis throughout their life I can very much relate to your words and obs

As someone in middle age who has also been struggling with ADHD and frequent mental paralysis throughout their life I can very much relate to your words and observations, and therefore wish you all the best on your future journey. Making mistakes is not failure, failure is giving up on your dreams and aspirations. There is a lot of wisdom and knowledge out there that can help you making slightly better decisions. For me it was learning more about ADHD-associated rejection sensitivity, attachment theory or C.G. Jung's concept of the man-child.