Your 36, not 56, so don't worry about your age. ADHD is part of the 'neuro-divergent' group I believe. I've had a similar experience. I'm almost 30. I did a t

Your 36, not 56, so don't worry about your age. ADHD is part of the 'neuro-divergent' group I believe. I've had a similar experience. I'm almost 30. I did a tough degree, but dropped in/out and had to drag my arse across the finish line. Same as school. Top student some days, worse than the worst other days. My grades are a literal sine wave if you track them yea-on-year, month-on-month. Same with work. Also, jobs have been very tough. I've had similar experiences with interviews. But I just got a job offer, after many trials. Before that offer (literally happened today), I was made redundant from a toxic role. Like you, I'm very capable, and smart (enough) - the ADHD just makes me very inconsistent and emotional. I can barely recall any information from my degree, my knowledge has literal gaping holes. But I did not know I was trialling through ADHD at the time, I just thought I was an idiot and that I couldn't handle things like most people. But, it will get better. I'm medicated now, have been for a short while and it has helped me focus, but on top of that, the ADHD (has always) given me an insane drive compared to most people I meet. So now I'm hopeful, and I see a new job as a new start, first time medicated and understanding this ADHD thing. I have faith it will work out for you. If you need to, consider doing a 'lesser' job/role in the meantime until you feel stable and your medication is working. It will get better, you are still young. You can be the best you on medication (and you can pick up other healthy habits too). Also re your goals. Know thyself - both strengths, and weaknesses. Lean into the strengths, whatever they may be. Be aware of the weaknesses.