I've been there. It's easy for me to ignore the "right and wrong, win or lose" mentality of certain situations, but there are some times when I feel disengaged

I've been there. It's easy for me to ignore the "right and wrong, win or lose" mentality of certain situations, but there are some times when I feel disengaged or nauseous about being in a situation where I am not expected to perform well. The solution, IMO, is to remember that you aren't the feelings in your head. There was a time you would have had a feedback loop for the game regardless of winning or losing, and you've lost touch with it due to age. Your remedy, which is the correct one, is to persevere beyond your banal mental fortress until a new feedback loop is created. By the way, I'm a huge fan of your work. Good job!