For the first few months, I was drinking enough to start feeling shitty around lunchtime the next day (as opposed to hangovers, which have rarely bothered me).

For the first few months, I was drinking enough to start feeling shitty around lunchtime the next day (as opposed to hangovers, which have rarely bothered me). I believe this was mild withdrawal symptoms the day after and it waned after several hours. I already drank a good amount each evening before the pan and it went gangbusters during (I was single and lived alone and had no car, so very isolated). I was able to pull back and even quit a couple of times since (well after we had vaxxes and boosters and got back to normal). I’m presently dry while I put into effect some major life changes. Unsure whether I’ll start again once that’s complete. Life is much better than five years ago and I don’t expect I’ll feel the need to self-medicate, but I just love alcohol, as so many alcoholics do.