Thank you mrmooss, good luck with your ongoing journey. In my experience we are hurt most when we return evil for evil, which is something that evil tries hard

Thank you mrmooss, good luck with your ongoing journey. In my experience we are hurt most when we return evil for evil, which is something that evil tries hard to get us to do. Regarding the gospels, yes, and to my original point, in John's gospel there is "the disciple whom Jesus loved", implying that Jesus didn't love them all equally.