I think I've lost access to the love notes I exchanged with someone recently, because they were Discord messages and not emails, and they've blocked me and I cl

I think I've lost access to the love notes I exchanged with someone recently, because they were Discord messages and not emails, and they've blocked me and I closed the DM trying not to look at it. Sure most of it was me spiraling out of control but maybe there was some useful red flag I could have dug out of our conversations, even if it was my own.