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I don't want to be mean to your therapist, but really? Understanding camera eyelines counts as autistic now? You're fine doing that. Sorry, but that comment s

I don't want to be mean to your therapist, but really? Understanding camera eyelines counts as autistic now? You're fine doing that. Sorry, but that comment she made really sent me. Reminds me of how the film department forced the digital artists to take a Cinematography and lighting classed irl so their final project renders would improve.

smeej 2y ago
It might be one thing if I had done it on purpose, because I was thinking about camera eyelines. But it wasn't deliberate. I subconsciously choose based on how another person will see me, because I don't really expect to get a whole lot of information from seeing them. Something about this being a type of "masking" in autistic women, trying harder to get my social cues across to others, but not expecting myself to receive them. I think maybe I have "trauma masquerading as ASD," because the symptoms are subjectively improving as I learn to down-regulate my nervous system, but then I don't much care what label gets put on why I'm weird. I'm much more interested in figuring out what to do with the different ways I'm weird. I'm old enough that I can't think of ways formal diagnosis would help me, so I'd rather assume each challenge is treatable until I find out that it isn't.