I just can't do it. I even turned myself into a woman and I still can't, as a lesbian, be platonic friends with other women. There's no middle ground between "

I just can't do it. I even turned myself into a woman and I still can't, as a lesbian, be platonic friends with other women. There's no middle ground between "She is not that interesting to me, we can be online pen pals but I have no interest in visiting her" and "I'm attracted to her and can't think about anything else" It's probably a disorder honestly