Your post is a little broad but a lot of your hatred seems to stem from an unfortunate environment - to which I'm sorry to hear that you had such a rough experi

Your post is a little broad but a lot of your hatred seems to stem from an unfortunate environment - to which I'm sorry to hear that you had such a rough experience. To me it sounds like you just don't like "ORGANIZED SPORTS". Have you tried something a little more individually involved such as tennis / ping-pong / martial arts / etc.? My heuristic for personal enjoyment of a sport is that I must directly interact with the related equipment for a minimum of 30% of the time. That immediately rules out most organized sports such as football or baseball. Ultimate frisbee is contingent on a maximum of four vs four people. I'm just not a fan of spending vast amounts of time running up and down a field waiting for the opportunity to potentially participate. I can already do that - it's called running.