Guess I have a lack of passion then, despite building countless of full stack side projects and what-not even before I knew these could make me money at my teen

Guess I have a lack of passion then, despite building countless of full stack side projects and what-not even before I knew these could make me money at my teenage years. I started out with PHP using txt files as storage in my teens so none of what you said would be relevant to what I've experienced, and that was I would say almost 20 years ago. And in my high school years I took part of coding competitions where I scored high nationally without knowing any of bitwise or otherwise things, despite deeply enjoying those things. This weird elitism drives me mad, but maybe truly I haven't done enough to prove my worthiness in this arena. Maybe PHP or JavaScript is not true programming.