This may stop. I had a similar situation in 2019 but it was caused by post traumatic stress and an indifferent company. Then I had post traumatic growth about

This may stop. I had a similar situation in 2019 but it was caused by post traumatic stress and an indifferent company. Then I had post traumatic growth about 3-4 years after, I achieved 3 qualifications in 3 months, and within a year won a Hackathon, was promoted and became one of the highest performing people in my new job without even trying (PTG manifested the ability without any real conscious effort). I put this down to some kind of repair mechanism. I still have some lesser depression but the post traumatic stress is gone. The growth eventually stopped but I still perform at a marginally higher level than prior to the event without effort (e.g. distinctions in appraisals where previously it would be very good or similar). My personality also changed, I no longer settle for shit and speak my mind frankly not caring very much about consequences (but never insulting other people). https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Post-traumatic_growth https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Post-traumatic_growth