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(continuing my comment) Right from at the beginning there were 2 different entities talking to me. They were usually one woman and one men. These entities (like

(continuing my comment) Right from at the beginning there were 2 different entities talking to me. They were usually one woman and one men. These entities (like all the other entities) only understood my native tongue if i talked (in my mind) for them in literary language (Im Finnish btw), but if i started using some of multible dialects we have in Finland they could not follow me at all and got angry. They also had problem understanding English in which i am pretty fluent. What they basicly did whas dig all the dirt (from my mind) from my past life and tried to prosecude me for them and judge me because of them. They also threatened that i am going to hell for these things i have done to what i answered that i don't really believe in a hell in a way traditional christians or other religions believe. Something good came out from this because during this "mind interrogation" time i succeeded to process lots of my traumas and bad doings from the past and after processing, understanding and integrating them they could not hold those things anymore against me. So, thank entities i think! :D Oh, these entities changed to other entities once in a while, like new ones came in a play and old ones briefed the new ones about me, current situation, my beliefs and so on. Multiple times they asked each other and me what do i believe (as in religion, after life etc.) and then started acting based on that. I notied multiple times they skipped the briefing and they started doing roles they already had done (like going to hell, we are gods etc). They also had this weird weird fascination of my religious beliefs, like what do i believe now and what do i believe happens after dead. It felt to methat they ment to use these as some sort of base for their acting roles. They got weird when i explained them that i don't believe in God in traditional sense, maybe as a ultimate creator or something completly different consisting of everything (but lets not deep dive there). When i told them that we humans have this simulation theory that is a possibility they went kinda nuts and some got very angry to me and told me that the theory is idiotic and that i am idiotic. Then some of the entities said it was actually a good theory and explained it in more datail to another entities whom some of them then actually started to think it as a good way to look universe. But they did not like the idea that there might be another simulation over our simulation and so on. Some entities bluntly said that it was "very fucking worrying idea". At some point we got over the whole religion and belief thing and the direction of conversations changed. I kinda disarmed them from the usual hell/good/evil/god/angles narrative by telling them that i don't belong to any religion but i believe in my own personal way. So, this far it has been only "mental" things. Then it started to proceed pseudo-physical. At some point i started getting pseudo-physical feelings from the entities. Like muscle twitches, ringing in ears (kinda like tinnitus but lasting only like 10-15 seconds a time), static electricity feeling on my hair/sculpt and pushing/pulling/twisting sensation on "ghost limbs, ghost toes, ghost foot". I would feel that they would twist my big toe or my leg. It did not hurt but i could sense my foot/limb/toe moving. The sensation stopped right when i moved my real phyical body part. To make it sure for myself that my bodyparts were not moving i was watching my toe when they did it and physical toe did not move but i felt it was moving. Right when i moved my real toe the feeling stopped. I also felt this "pushing" power sometimes at certain points on my body. I could not figure out what could do this in physics (im a strong believer in physics and laws of nature) i just don't have knowledge of idea howto start trying to measure if there is some force that could do this kind of sensations :) Regarding the stuff they say. They lie all the time and play roles. I tried this by starting to think some occultic sect kinda thing and almost right away they started roleplaying occultic rituals and stuff related to it to me. Same thing when i started thinkin about alies and (lol) mind control technology from military. So they kinda feed from your thoughs and just go with it. The one and only thing entities have told me that was true and that i had not known previously was that Finnish as language is related (by a long way) to Sanskrit, but that could just been a joke from them that happened to be true. When entity told me another one got angry and said something like "Now he thinks everything we say to him is not a lie!". Other than this they have been mostly attacking my inner monologue and inner thoughts trying to get me feel bad about myself (which i am not - im 100% in balance with my self, my life decisions, my life projectory and have integrated my "Jungian shadow" pretty well to my psyche). From this 3 year period i was also working 1.5 years full time. This things did not really affect my work performance, only thing that happened when i was working that these entities would talk between each others that they don't understand at all what i am doing. Im by the way going back to workforce probably at the beginning of next month wish me luck ;) I also do electronic music as a hobby (shameless selfplug: https://soundcloud.com/lappuliisa https://soundcloud.com/lappuliisa ) and this they find very interesting. They appreciate music and musicians and are fascinated about someone creating it but they don't seem get free jazz at all. When i produce music they usually leave me completly alone and let me do my thing. Usually if new entity comes in to the play and noticed that i do music he/she will tell me my music sucks but right after that other entities come and say that "he really does good music and is very talented in that field". So i think i have fan base there :D haha. I also can't say that they are evil or good. It is almost they lack the idea of evil and good, they are more like instinct driven beings. I mean sure it is evil to say someone "kill yourself" or "kill your parents" but even then it feels like they don't have capability for empathy in same way as we have. They are pretty black and white in their opinions. So thanks for the rant :) I have stopped taking my antipsychotic medication because they did not help with the symptoms in a long run and actually worsened the way i could face these things and go on my life with them. I have talked about with with my doctors and they agree with me. I have good support net on family side and also on medical side so if it seems that things start to spiral out of control there is multiple catch points to grab me and get me then maybe needed help. All the best for you and if any of you have any further questions please respond to this thread and or send me email (email is in my profile). Good Wednesday for everyone from Finland!

akomtu 2y ago
That's quite a story. What usually opens such unwelcome communication channel is a contact with some weird person. Perhaps someone you met at that festival. A good way to think of those voices as of scammers from the criminal world who find a phone number of a naive grandma, dig all details on her and use that for their gain. They are smart, but they are also limited in what they can understand, and your rationalist belief in simulation derailed their script completely. If you had a mystical mindset or a good visual imagination, they'd get an easy ride. The comms channel is electromagnetic in nature and neurons, not necessarily in your brain, facilitate the connection. To close it you'd need an exorcism, but these days even the church doesn't believe in exorcisms, so good luck getting one. On the other hand, you're so solid that not only they haven't fooled you, but you've even managed to gain something. So my guess is they'll lose interest soon: you're like a stubborn client who doesn't buy "extended car warranties", and is smart enough to see their lies. For the sake of an experiment, visit a mass in a church nearby, when they do this eucharist thing, and observe their reaction. I bet they'll be excited. You don't need to believe to make it work. Another way is to mute the comms channel with meds, but in your case it didn't work. As to why they promise to make you a "god". That's an equivalent of promising a pile of money you've "inherited" from a far away uncle if only you transfer them a modest sum to confirm your interest. The reason they want you to do an evil deed is to get you on the hook: so long as you aren't doing wrong things, there is little they can do. Their mindset is very ego-centric, so they understand selfish thoughts, but will be puzzled with things not revolving around your self. This probably explains their attitude towards your music: they don't understand its purpose, and the most they could do is to try flattering. In their world, the only thing worth doing is trying to gain something for themselves at the expense of others by any means possible.
ivanb 2y ago
Very interesting and well written. I have a thought that if you have entities in your head, you may as well make them pay rent. If you record the conversations or just your experience, other people would be willing to pay to learn about it. Youtube, Patreon, Tiktok, whatever. I for one am interested in what the entities think about themselves. How old are they? Can they tell you something you don't know besides the sanskrit thing. Maybe they are too deceitful to get any real information, but also maybe they can give you some creative output.

akomtu 2y ago

That's quite a story. What usually opens such unwelcome communication channel is a contact with some weird person. Perhaps someone you met at that festival. A good way to think of those voices as of scammers from the criminal world who find a phone number of a naive grandma, dig all details on her and use that for their gain. They are smart, but they are also limited in what they can understand, and your rationalist belief in simulation derailed their script completely. If you had a mystical mindset or a good visual imagination, they'd get an easy ride. The comms channel is electromagnetic in nature and neurons, not necessarily in your brain, facilitate the connection. To close it you'd need an exorcism, but these days even the church doesn't believe in exorcisms, so good luck getting one. On the other hand, you're so solid that not only they haven't fooled you, but you've even managed to gain something. So my guess is they'll lose interest soon: you're like a stubborn client who doesn't buy "extended car warranties", and is smart enough to see their lies. For the sake of an experiment, visit a mass in a church nearby, when they do this eucharist thing, and observe their reaction. I bet they'll be excited. You don't need to believe to make it work. Another way is to mute the comms channel with meds, but in your case it didn't work. As to why they promise to make you a "god". That's an equivalent of promising a pile of money you've "inherited" from a far away uncle if only you transfer them a modest sum to confirm your interest. The reason they want you to do an evil deed is to get you on the hook: so long as you aren't doing wrong things, there is little they can do. Their mindset is very ego-centric, so they understand selfish thoughts, but will be puzzled with things not revolving around your self. This probably explains their attitude towards your music: they don't understand its purpose, and the most they could do is to try flattering. In their world, the only thing worth doing is trying to gain something for themselves at the expense of others by any means possible.

ivanb 2y ago

Very interesting and well written. I have a thought that if you have entities in your head, you may as well make them pay rent. If you record the conversations or just your experience, other people would be willing to pay to learn about it. Youtube, Patreon, Tiktok, whatever. I for one am interested in what the entities think about themselves. How old are they? Can they tell you something you don't know besides the sanskrit thing. Maybe they are too deceitful to get any real information, but also maybe they can give you some creative output.