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I save 90% of my income, and work freelance. My experience may be unusual but it has been the opposite. When I have a job time blurs togethor. I stop drawing, a
by wegfawefgawefg 2y ago
I save 90% of my income, and work freelance. My experience may be unusual but it has been the opposite. When I have a job time blurs togethor. I stop drawing, and exercising and learning math. Pressure builds. Eventually I finsh and that stage ends and a rennaissance begins. I am only a clear deep thinker when unemployed. When I am captured by the salient sense of daily responsibility and income, mental exercise is at the bottom of my priorities and doesnt make the effort/reward payoff threshold.
- BriggyDwiggs42 2y agoYep, I feel the same way. I focus on my music and feel far more satisfied when I’m not stuck spending lots of time on that sort of thing, which tends to make me feel tired and unmotivated all the time.
- forgot-im-old 2y agoSame. Self motivation may be related to dopamine receptor rate and sensitivity which are a genetic trait.
- wegfawefgawefg 2y agoIt seems some people have a higher innate need for personal agency. Where many are satisfied to just be stable (nothing wrong with that), despite being well fed, without a sense of agency I wither. My dad seems to have exactly the same ailment. This need for agency is not rational, and cannot be reasoned with. You cant offer it trades of money or favor, and it seems that it is absolutely incapable of being fooled. It asks not for agency over others, but only that what an individual does each day is self driven. It probably has very different influence on someone whos goals naturally synchronize with those around them, rather than naturally invert.
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